Friday, November 03, 2006

My Place in the Sun

On the first day of school, in a seminar, at someone’s house, peoples say, “Come on in. Find a place. Make yourself comfortable.” They seem to think that’s easy. They seem to think that any place is the same, just the same as any other.

That might be how it works for them. It’s not how it works for me.

When I find a place to be comfortable, I become part of it. It becomes part of me.

I’m an introvert, extrovert, introvert, who likes to be in a cave, on the stage, in a cave. Please don’t look at me or make me invisible. Don’t leave out or put me on a pedestal. I’m really shy, but I never have stage fright. The difference in all of these is holding the microphone.

All my life I’ve had a feeling that I would do something important, something that only I would make happen. Maybe that’s why I’m such a weird combination of contradictions or maybe I’m so normal that I can’t see it. It seems awfully normal towalk around feeling different, contradictory, and confused.

Isn’t everyone looking for their place in the sun?
I think that mine is hiding somewhere deep inside of me.

−me strauss Letting me be

10 comments:

Dawn said...

Maybe that’s why I’m such a weird combination of contradictions or maybe I’m so normal that I can’t see it.

Just in the last few days I've been hit over the head with how I am so full of contradictions. And not only me, but people in general, even people that I assume to be so solid, so full of self knowledge. I'm beginning to think that contradictions are integral to our human nature.

I hope you find your place in the sun, Liz. I hope it's not too far from mine.

ME Strauss said...

Hello, Dawn,
I think our place in the sun is inside of us. So mine will be right there beside you. Just as it always as been. :)

Janus Torrell said...

When people tell me to make myself comfortable or at home and I am in a perfectly clean house I often think...you don't really mean that. You don't want me to be comfortable here because it will destroy all this good cleaning work

ME Strauss said...

Janus,
you are such a practical GUY. I love how you look at the world. You keep grounded and centered. I love to hear from you.

Trée said...

I have a place for you Liz. And the cookies are free. Lemonade too. All you can drink. Have a weekend filled with wonder. :-)

ME Strauss said...

Ah Tree,
I have a place for you that's just the same! Maybe we'll meet there and we can have tea!

Jessica said...

Contradictions, opposites and the yin and yang of being a creative soul. I do say to people "make yourself at home". I mean it when I say it, yet I can't help thinking how, I seem not to make myself at home in my own home.

That was a nice post Liz :)

ME Strauss said...

thank you, Jessica.
What an interesting thought. Now I wonder whether I make myself at home in my own howm myself. Hmmmm. Sometimes I do not. :)

Tell No One said...

Liz,

Remember the half truth / half non-truth that a friend told me to remember?

"The path to finding oneself lies in understanding this half truth / half non truth, as a part of a greater truth."

I think it's essential in understanding and learning. Seems silly sometimes though.

You are an intricate,beautiful and perfect irony. I love it!
I can always smile at the ways we conflict inside but still meld perfectly.

Katrina

ME Strauss said...

Tell no one,
We grow up thinking adults know everything and that they know what decisions ot make without any feelings about them. That's not any more true than the stories of white knights who save damsels. You know your truth. It's written inside you. It's there when you look in the mirror.